I feel like I'm turning into more of a woman - I'm getting ready to leave home, go to college, be independent. It's an exhilarating time.
However, I'm at a very comfortable place in my career and celebrity, in that I don't have to audition as extensively as I used to for roles but yet I'm not immediately recognizable.
There's certainly something very uncomfortable about the voyeurism involved in being in the press, being an actor, where people have a seemingly insatiable curiosity about, you.
Maybe philosophy - I love talking about ideas. Or maybe art history. I was thinking about psychology, then I got really afraid because everybody says it's terribly boring.
I would sign on for projects that were meant to shoot in July, and then they would postponed and they would bleed into the following semester, and then I'd take a semester off, and then the movie would collapse.
When I was 18 I went to college for two years and didn't work for a year which was essential for me, because my identity had been so influenced by my being an actor and I think I just needed to discover what it was to be myself, divorced from all that responsibility.
I really liked Yale, although it was extremely intimidating. When I visited the campus, I was hiding behind trees, I felt so unworthy.
I finally realized that yeah I did want to be an actor and it wasn't out of habit, but I needed to grow up for myself and then kind of re-enter the industry with a sound understanding of what my sensibilities and my values are as a relatively formed human being.
I'm only realizing now that I was a child actress because I always took myself so seriously.
Fame doesn't end loneliness.
I think because I am as earnest as I am, people were accepting of my evolving into a certified, legitimate, and grown up and I did take three years off.
I have this home in New York, I have a long-term relationship with my boyfriend, who's from Australia, and I had this business that I had maintain. Even though I wasn't actively shooting, there's a lot of peripheral work.
I know, it's true. I've played these tortured teenagers. I can't wait to shed that image.
You know, let a few years go by until I hit my midlife crisis. Then that can be documented on film.
I have a huge, active imagination, and I think I'm really scared of being alone; because if I'm left to my own devices, I'll just turn into a madwoman.
But I don't know if people are meant to be together. You have to have a lot in common, choose well and be really fortunate. It's not like you're sprinkled with fairy dust. You have to believe that love will be there when you need it.
What I needed was a connection to life that was real and lasting.
I get a little jealous of these actor boys. They walk into a club, and in two seconds flat there are swarms of girls who are wanting so badly to touch them or just say hello. That's not the case with me, or any other girl I know.
Growing up, I wanted desperately to please, to be a good girl.
My character was kidnapped by the Terminator and I was kidnapped by the Terminator production.
Yeah, there was the Flora Plum thing, where I trained for about a month and I had taken a semester off for that, and two weeks prior to filming, the financing collapsed.
Acting is the greatest answer to my loneliness that I have found.
I became very successful at a young age... I had lots of opportunities and lots of power and had no idea how to focus it.
You don't realize how useful a therapist is until you see yourself on e and discover you have more problems than you ever dreamed of.
I hadn't been free from adult responsibilities since I was 12, and I needed to experience that. I really needed to just be a kid again.